Arian Om’s Journey Earthside ~ Our Home Birth Story

 

photo by Carissa Gay
photo by Carissa Gay

PLEASE BE ADVISED… This is the whole, raw, complete, beautiful, sacred truth of our birth story.  No details spared! 

It was 1am, Monday, December 22, 2014, on the Black New Moon of Winter Solstice.  I awoke with a cramping sensation.  I might be in labor, I thought, so I took note of the time and fell back to sleep.  About 8 minutes later, I awoke again with the same cramping sensation.  Not wanting to wake my husband, Jon, until I knew for sure, and knowing that he would need his rest to support me, I continued to rest in between rushes, keeping track of their distance apart.

Around 3am, the rushes were about 4-6 minutes apart and getting stronger, and I was having to breathe more deeply through them.  Needing no further convincing, I awoke Jon, letting him know that I was in labor.  I explained that I should eat something to build my strength, so he went to the kitchen to bring me some soup.  While he was away, I suddenly had a craving for one of my son’s organic, whole food bear vitamins, so I called for him to bring two of them, too.

This was my second birth, and I was amazed at the deep, calm wisdom within that I felt guiding me.  I welcomed the experience, knowing that every rush would bring my baby to me.  I trusted my body and felt fully capable of bringing our child into the world.  With my amazing, supportive, deeply loving husband by my side, I could do anything.

After gaining nourishment, I went to the bathroom while Jon prepared our bed.  As I passed by the mirror, I realized I was wearing the shirt my Mom gave me just a few days prior.  On the front was a huge open lotus flower.  How perfect!  I sat on the toilet to pee and saw that my mucus plug was making its way out.  I began singing that just like a lotus flower, I, too, would ooooOpen wiiiiiide.

I walked around a bit, and by 4am, my rushes were a couple minutes apart and around 40 seconds long.  I texted my midwife, Jennifer Vines, to let her know that I was in labor and inform her on the status of my rushes.  She asked if I would like to have doula support or contact her as things progressed.  I chose the latter.  At this point, I was feeling very tired, so I asked Jon to lie down with me to see if I could rest between rushes.  We spooned and he rubbed my back.  I could feel him sharing loving, peaceful energy with me.  So soothing…  Amazingly, as if my body heard my call, my rushes spread back to 6 minutes apart for a little while, so I was able to sleep between them.

Two hours later, at 6am, my rushes got closer and intensified.  I sat up recharged and ready to give birth to our baby.  We called my Mom to get her up to speed, telling her she could contact my Blessing Way circle of Sisters around 7am to light their candles and send good energies…and that she should arrive around 8 to be there when our 5 year old son, Abner, was waking so she could help dress him and take him to her house just down the street.  She expressed that she kept feeling that the baby would come around 11am.  I then had Jon call the midwife to give her an update on my progress.  She said she would begin gathering her things and her team (her daughter, Carissa, and Sandee) and head our way in a bit.

The toilet, being a place of opening and releasing, felt like a good place for me, so I decided to hang out there.  All the while, Jon was right by my side supporting me, rubbing my back, thanking me and telling me how beautiful I was and how wonderful I was doing.  With each rush, I would tone low, primal sounds while visualizing myself opening up like a lotus.  The sounds washed through me, helping me open and relieving my discomfort.  In hindsight, I imagine these sound vibrations also comforted our baby from within.

(Click here to hear my Primal Birth Sounding.)

My bum began to get tired of the toilet seat, so I asked Jon to prepare a bath.  He helped me up from the toilet, and we danced as he assisted me into the tub.  Ahhhhhh, how wonderful the water felt.  I called upon its wisdom, the support of my ancestors who gave birth before me, Source and my highest guides.  The sun was rising, casting the most beautiful golden hue on the woods outside my bathtub’s picture window.  I felt so much love from the sacred cedars and all the nature spirits, expressing my gratitude for them.  I visualized my central channel cleared and charged with pure Source energy.  I could feel it pouring in through my crown and emanating throughout my being.

Still in the bath, at 8am, my Mom arrived just as our son was waking.  The midwife and her team arrived at 8:30 and finished prepping our bedroom.  Sandee was diligently providing doula support and giving me water to drink between each rush.  My Mom and Abner came to tell us goodbye, and they left for her house.

photo by Carissa Gay
photo by Carissa Gay

Feeling my rushes beginning to become stagnant, my intuition guided me to get out of the bath and back on the loo.  Once there, my midwife, Jennifer knotted up a sarong to create a little tug of war for Jon and I.  I began pulling on it during rushes, and after a couple went by, I suddenly heard and felt a POP, followed by waters rushing out.  I then vomited, but only once.  After that, my rushes reached a whole new level of intensity, like crashing waves on a stormy day, coming strong and fast.  I knew then I was in transition.

Uncomfortable with the hard toilet seat at this phase, Jon assisted me to a seated position on the Gaiam ball that my intuition guided me to borrow from my Mom weeks prior.  My chest was supported with pillows on our bed in front of me.  It was then that I felt the urge to begin pushing, and with each rush I would circle my hips atop the ball, noticing that certain positions would bring forth more waters.  I was a mammal, a powerful tigress, sounding deep and guttural.  My team assured me that I was very close and doing great.  Though I wanted to believe them, a part of me felt they were just saying that to make me feel better, since I pushed 3 hours with my first.  I realized that doubt wasn’t helping, so I shifted back to trusting and knowing it was true, that our baby would soon be born.

In no time it seemed, I began feeling down pressure sitting on the ball, and decided to get up.  My team guided me on all fours, placed the ball in front of me and draped a towel over it for me to grip.  As my legs were tired, I sat back on my feet in a modified squat position and kept pushing with the rushes.  Oooooooooooommmm…Ooooooooooommmmm… more sounding, more opening.

All the sudden I found myself concerned over not having paid my midwife in full, yet.  I knew from reading the birthing stories in Ina May’s midwifery books that once women voiced their toils, the baby came right out.  She sensed my thinking, and asked me about it, just as I was beginning to share that there was something I needed to express.  Once I did, and she very kindly assured me that she was not worried about it, that it was okay, and that right now, I just needed to have this baby, I got back to the task at hand.

Just as the stories told, within 5 minutes, I felt a strong burning sensation.  It was like I was giving birth through my bum hole.  (People don’t talk about this much, but it’s true!)  Jennifer checked me, and she said she felt the baby’s head.  After a couple more pushes, she directed me to raise my bum up off my feet a bit and shared, “We’ve got the head!”  On one hand I was so excited to hear his head was out, but on the other hand I was like, “Then what is the hang up?!”, because with my first, once the head was out, the rest of him just slid on out.  I felt a gentle tug and immediate relief…our baby was born at 11:34am!!!  Since I was facing the other direction, I turned my head and saw our precious BOY!!!  Surprise, it’s a boy!!!  I watched as they cleared his airways and he turned pink.  The song of his cries was music to my ears.

Jon helped me to the bed, and they placed our precious baby in my arms.  Infinite loooove!  We went right to work on getting latched and breastfeeding.  It took him a little while, but he tried diligently and got the hang of it, finally latching and drinking in my sacred, natural nourishment.  The placenta was born and Jon cut the cord once it was done pumping.  Abner and Mom arrived at the house to check on us, only to find that the baby had been born.  They came in and greeted our new family member, Arian Om.  All together, our family of four at last.

photo by Carissa Gay
photo by Carissa Gay
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photo by Carissa Gay

Once he was done nursing, Jennifer and her team took him to clean, weigh and dress him.  I hear Jennifer calmly proclaim, “He weighs 10 lbs., 13 oz.”.  “WHAT!?”, I responded.  She repeated herself, and I couldn’t believe my ears.  He was 22″ long, his head was over 15 inches and his chest was over 16(!!), which was why his body didn’t just sliiiiide right out.  I was so amazed and happy that I had birthed that much baby without a single perineal tear.  Jennifer shared that he was the biggest baby she had ever caught or even attended.  She returned him to my arms quickly, so we weren’t apart for long, and it was sail away to baby bliss for me.

World Sound Healing Day

Happy Full Moon, Love Day, and World Sound Healing Day! A sacred trinity of powerful energies to generate loving harmony around and through the globe.

Join me @ noon, wherever you are, to co-create a vibrational valentine for the planet and all her inhabitants. Sound “Ah” for 5 minutes with the intention of Love and Compassion. 

New Year, Super New Moon, Authentically Empowered New YOU

photo by Michael Shumate
photo by Michael Shumate

This New Year, this Super New Moon, I’m not going to share yet another “report” from somewhere, telling you what planets are in alignment, what to expect and what it is that you should do to ring in the days, weeks and months ahead.  Instead, I want to encourage and empower YOU to allow YOURself the presence of each moment.

Within the presence of each moment, within yourself, are all the tools, gifts and wisdom you’ll ever need to prepare, enlighten and guide you in each new moment of the new year and all the new years ahead.  There’s nothing complicated or analytical about it, and there’s no need to plan ahead.  It’s really just as simple as Loving and Trusting yourself enough to be here right now, and continue being here right now through each and every moment, allowing the breath of spirit fully in (refreshing and enlivening you) and fully out (cleansing you), without attachment.

All that comes into your field of experience has been drawn to you by your energetic alignment with it.  Living fully within each moment, you’re able to sense the messages and gifts you’ve drawn into your experience, so that you may expand deeper, higher and wider than the moment before.  All the elements, animals, minerals, plants, humans, spirits and energies your highest self attracts have messages/gifts for you, helping to guide you to the next step on your true divine path.  Listen from your heart, trust your intuition, and the guidance they offer will be revealed, propelling you into the next moment of your magical journey.

Each being in all of existence carries with them the wisdom of the whole.  Each being is a unique Soul manifestation of Source, who from the non-physical perspective, chose this body/earth experience for expansion of Spirit, and to be a vehicle for Source creation.  Recognize and honor the amazing-ness of YOU.  Only YOU carry your particular perspective and song, and only YOU can create and sing in the specific way you do.  Embody, trust and BE the strength, power, gift of insight and knowing that you carry, and instead of looking to others to show you the way, look within and show yourself.

Here’s to fully embracing and BEaming YOU in each moment of the new year and beyond.  Happy 2014 Soul Family!

InJoy & Infinite Love,

Jess Bray ♥

2014 ~ Year of the Horse

Painted Pony Abstract by Marcia Baldwin
Painted Pony Abstract by Marcia Baldwin

SO ready for the year of the horse. We’ve done some deep Soul excavation and contemplation this year. Time to pony up, put our intuitions swiftly into action and transmute our visions and dreams into being. Ready to ride 2014 to its fullest?! Bring it on! ~ Jess Bray ♥

Want a helpful companion for your journey? I’d love to assist you in reconnecting with the tools you already have, igniting your innate wisdom to access the highest potential in each moment of your Soul’s grand adventure. For more info, check out my services.

Through rose colored glasses…

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original image source unknown

What if today, and each day henceforth, we all made a conscious choice to see through rose colored glasses?  What if we saw not what is, but what could be, and believed in it?  Believing in our rose colored visions of Love so wholeheartedly that this became our new reality.  What if we all remembered our power as visionaries, not toiling over every fine detail of how it will come, but setting sights on our wildest dreams, trusting and knowing with every twinkling fiber of Grandmother Spider’s web that it will be?  What if we knew we could have it all…that abundance was in infinite supply and available to everyone who allows it in?  What if we began to see the Earth and her inhabitants, not from a perspective of brokenness, but in their true nature of wholeness in Oneness?  What if we allowed these rose colored glasses to transform life as we know it, to life as we create it?

~ Jess Bray ♥

We are trees…

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We are trees by the stream, rooted deeply in the earth, reaching high into the heavens, drinking in the infinite supply of sustaining waters and providing shelter to those in need… Dreamt of a field of feathers, picking up several turkey feathers (abundance).  Seeing numbers of confirmation for my work…following the true path, supported by the ascended masters, prosperity and change, change, change sooner than expected.  The raven visited me yesterday as I wept in Abner’s playhouse at the edge of the wood, assisting me in diving into my deepest darkest places and emerging with the light of true self.  I’m not rushing this process…I’m in the place of revelation, soon to emerge in the fullness of my light.  ~ Jess Bray ♥

Comet ISON, “growing pains” and ascension

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I believe there is a purpose for comet ISON’s engagement with the sun. The sun receives and transmutes our cosmic downloads. Its encounter with the sun was its journey all along.  Though the fate of ISON, post-sun interaction, is still largely unknown, we are certainly feeling its energetic transference.

So many are experiencing “growing pains” (overwhelming releases) right now. I for one experienced fatigue all day yesterday and lucid dreaming last night, and it wasn’t just the Thanksgiving turkey.

I’ll share with you now a message I sent this morning, as I feel it is relevant for us all at the moment…
With each new level of awakening there are more layers to shed. Most likely, the shifts and choices you are actively making have helped you achieve a whole new level of awareness, and now there’s deeper stuff to “weed out”. Do not lose heart. This process is not easy, but it will become easier when you learn to look at these times of dis-ease for the release that they are instead of something happening to you that’s beyond your control. Allowing the waves to flow without clinging to the rocks is the best way to move with it and to the other side. Remember to call your Highest Self in to guide you…and there are also the Highest Ascended Masters, Archangels (Archangel Michael, esp. for fear) and the One Source Creator you can call in to assist and comfort you, but you have to ask. This is a time of great personal and planetary shifts to assist our movement into a more Divine state here on Earth. This means that our old paradigm structures must transform. In order to transform, we must first clear so we may create anew. These clearings are sometimes difficult but necessary for our soul’s expansion and ascension. Keep your soul strong. Power animals are excellent to connect with, too (hawk, eagle, big cats, etc…).

Sending Ease and Love to All!

~ Jess ♥

A Story of Gratitude

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One evening I gazed at the setting sun, enamored with the beauty of its rays beaming through the forest behind my house. With all encompassing gratitude for the moment, I began to hear the symphony of Creation. For just a moment, clear as a bell, I could hear the song of the forest. At once my excitement and thoughts ceased the sounds. Once again, connecting to the deep feelings of gratitude and all encompassing Love at the experience, for a moment, the symphony returned.

I learned an instrumental key to unlocking the magic of Creation that day…when I am fully in my heart space, emanating nothing but pure genuine ecstatic bliss in gratitude for the beauty of existence in the moment, time-space is slowed and all is revealed.

May the Spirit of gratitude shine through us each moment for all of our days!  Happy Thanksgiving Soul Family!

~ Jess Bray ♥

Frequencies of the organs of the body and planets

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Everything has its own unique frequency. Focused presentation of the original balanced frequency to the dis-eased area can assist it’s return to a state of wholeness.  ~ Jess Bray ♥

Frequencies of the organs of the body and planets

 

Inspiration…

We are SO much more than we allow ourselves to believe. One of the greatest deceptions of our time is that we are separate from the Divine, that the answers exist in some external power outside of us. The reality is, we ARE the Divine spark, the world bridgers, the sacred in form. No longer will we hide…RISE & BE-AM! ~Jess Bray ♥

Nature’s Wisdom ~ Eagle and Spider

Photo by Christian Sasse
Photo by Christian Sasse

all things are connected in this web of life. let your wings fly you to the highest of heights. ~Jess ♥

Symphony of Creation

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You provide a unique and essential song in the symphony of creation.

~ Jess Bray ♥

Divine Union ~ Beyond Gender Roles

photo by Lightning Dove
photo by Lightning Dove

not only the divine feminine is rising, but also the divine masculine, and moving beyond duality, the divine union. we’ve arrived at the realization that we’ve lived both and we’ve learned the gifts of contrast each offered us. now is the time to honor and integrate those gifts as we ascend forth in the sacred wholeness of oneness. ~ Jess Bray ♥

Nature’s Wisdom ~ Tiger

pic and artwork by Jess Bray
pic and artwork by Jess Bray

focus
fierce determination
immovable, unshakable grace
i manifest my goals
fearlessly
~ Jess Bray ♥

#cinquain

Nature’s Wisdom ~ Eagle

photo by Christian Sasse
photo by Christian Sasse

thank you, eagle, for your visitations, wisdom, encouragement, illumination and love. i have risen above my fears and self-doubts to fully accept my role as a bridge between earth and the divine. ~ Jess Bray ♥

Nature’s Wisdom ~ Red-tailed Hawk

Red Tail Hawk by Marvin Collins
Red Tail Hawk by Marvin Collins

The hawk calls us to rise above and view life from a broader perspective. From this place, daily dramas disappear and opportunities reveal themselves. Let go and ascend beyond seeming strife. Open your heart to the world. Connect to the wisdom of the highest knowledge within you. It’s always there, waiting for your embrace. May this eternal knowing be your guide. It’s time to move beyond what has been and hold the grand vision of the new world. You learned to crawl. You learned to walk. Fully rooted in the Mother’s womb, your destiny awaits. The time has come, dear ones, to spread your wings and fly. ~ Jess Bray (Spinning Hawk) ♥

For the singles and not so loving it…

the belief that if someone else has happiness, it’s somehow taking away from ours is a grand illusion we must overcome. we have a limitless supply of abundance available to us at all times. rejoice in witnessing love around you. what a beautiful mirror! the more you align with love energy, the quicker you’ll experience it in your own reality. be in your center. live your truth. hold the vision of your ideal mate…and live! he’s/she’s there and he/she will come into your life when what you want in him/her is what you are.

the key is being wholeheartedly yourself. lord knows, i could have frightened my hubby away with all the truths i shared with him at the very beginning, but it turned out, he felt the same way…of course! trust that if you’re in your truth, you’ll only attract like vibration. be okay with not attracting those who can’t dance with your energy. they don’t belong there in the first place. universal design is perfect…let it weave its magic for you and let go of the rest.

~ Jess Bray ♥

Our Beautiful Earth

in celebration we walk this breathtaking organism that we call home. how blessed are we? and to that I reply…infinitely. let in her love for you, as awakened earth walkers, and share with her your overflowing supply of divine Love-Light. Heal, fill, overflow to the Mother. She knows where it need be. Happy healing, loving, beaming and creating, kind friends! ~ Jess Bray ♥

Live from the heart…

Loving self is loving others. When you begin to live and make choices from your heart and from your truth, allowing yourself to be fulfilled in all aspects of your life, everything in your reality shifts to support that resonance. Come together as divine beings in love, support one another in your heartfelt choices, and rejoice in the beautiful new world you’ve created. ~ Jess Bray ♥

Happy to be alive…

so happy to be alive and of service at this monumental timeline of ascension. the key is love and the door is wide open. may the cosmic source fire burn the dross, where only love remains.      ~ Jess Bray ♥